I am going through a different kind of feeling these days. I am out of my last relationship a long time back. Remember, I have written about a boy who is non Punjabi but after all my friend’s comments and a lot of thinking I accepted his offer of marriage. I even talked about him at my home. My brothers met him, my mother met him but he bastard, he simply said with a lot of tears in his eyes. That he can not betray his parents, he can not see them crying. Although it was very painful for me but I realized my worth and I left him. No no, not with simply tears in my eyes huh, I slapped that bastard in MacD, in front of other guys. Yes, J

It was lovely. I felt very nice after slapping him, after scolding him and finally after leaving from there. He tried to contact me after that, through chat , through mail, through phone, every time what he heard from my mouth was scolding, abuses and a lot of curses for him. Then eventually, I even stopped picking his phones and blocked him from my chat. Ufff, he was such a crying personality. Only rona dhona type, uff, not doing anything, simply blaming his luck.

After getting free from there, I realized importance of my life for myself only. I began concentrating on my hobbies, my friends, my books, my career, my family (with them I used to fight only because of that bastard).

Now after that m totally into enjoying my life. But sometimes I think, I should give myself more freedom, more independence, I do not want anybody’s interference in my life. I want to wear whatever I want, I want to have friendship with whomever I want, I want to do whatever I want. (obviously I am a mature girl, I know which things are good and bad for me.) although , I have decided to get married, as somehow I find myself relationship addict. But , I think now I should give myself some time. Some space , some life only for me. ITS MY LIFE.  Although I and my family are still looking for good groom, but now, my attitude is totally changed. I would like to have a husband, who can understand me and respect me. Now, whenever I have to go to meet any family or boy, I do not go with attitude that they are coming to see me, but it is me, who is going to see them. And on certain things, I am very much clear and put my foot down,( Thanks to meow FM, and Anil the RJ) I know there are certain things I need and will not change for them,. Like, I will not leave my job,  I will not compromise  on certain things etc.

Now its only my life, my life and me.