SELF RESPECT OR JOB

“ baap bada na bhaiya, sabse bada rupiya”

I  also used to believe in these words, but you know there are times, when we can not say like this , there are many more things, which are clearly uncompromisable .

 As suggested by my friends, and my fellow bloggers, and as mentioned in my previous blog, I didn’t pay attention to my boss’s various unjustified demands, whenever asked for coffee outside, or lunch outside (obviously, hiding from all the office like bloody thieves), i simply made one or another excuse to get out of this situation, like no, today I have to got to library,

No, sir, sorry but you should have told me before as I have plan today with my mom for shopping.

O my god, every Saturday, I had to come with a new excuse. Saturday, not because of weekend, but because, we normally have our almost half day, and hence he can get his enjoyment without any suffering for his work (See, His cleverness). Suddenly, he stopped all this, I heaved a big sigh of  relief and almost 2 weeks were very good.

Ya, all that continued which I have mentioned in my previous  blog, like  getting rebuked on every single smallest mistake, making me sit fro almost 1 hour even after my office timing is over, just to say good bye for the day, o my god , there were many.

Anyways, I already have started giving interviews, so there were normally 2 to 2.5 leave in the month of January. But , as I have already told you, getting these HR job is really time consuming.

I thought that I should concentrate on my present job now, instead of finding a new job. I came to the office with this noble thought but I received a letter from my Accounts head saying

“ you mobile reimbursement  of Rs. 500/-*has been taken back from you as you don’t receive calls from the office, whenever out of the office”. I have already expected this coming as he has once called me at 9.30 pm from his cell, which I didn’t pick up. I got a good shouting from his side next day. Same happened one day again I was on my way to interview and I received this call from office, I knew he is calling me since he has messaged me one senti message, and I knew he is going to call me and next day, I received this letter.

Maybe he was expecting that I will go and talk to him regarding this, but he did not know that now I have developed a great deal of self respect and I am not ready to compromise on this. I simply gave my reply to head accounts saying I was in hospital to take care of my grandma (this was the alibi, I have used to take leave for that day ;))

I didn’t even hint him anything regarding this. I have thought that I won’t mind this at all. As I  was having this condition  while getting this reimbursement,   that I will msg. him and call him, which I didn’t want and I was not doing obviously, that’s what hit him I think.  I discussed this matter in my home and they also echoed my view point.

On the same way, I got biggest shock of my life, when I happen to sit on the computer of his PA, who is also my sister in law. And I saw a mail there which was actually a copy, original of whose was with MD only. It was from a consultant, who sends us other candidates; she has sent her resumes for the post of AM- HR, which is handled by me only. I can’t describe my feeling at that time, like somebody who has just been stabbed in the heart, I felt so cheated, so insulted (although, I should not). Tears rolled down my eyes and called my best friend immediately to discuss this matter.

Although I myself was very much disturbed and tense over the prevailing conditions in office,  but leaving this job without having one in my hand was so much risky that I got so much worried over the uncertainty of my life and career to be specific. But, I decided I will not talk to him regarding this, I will not say yes to his unjustified demands. I have expected all this, but obviously coming face to face with this will be so much troublesome and difficult I never thought.

In the same company, he had an employee as his girl friend and according to rumors; she has been used by him. After being satisfied, he just made her out of the company by simply terminating her. Poor girl, lost her job, also her reputation also whether she really did anything or not, only God knows. I do not want to fall in the same trap. Now, when I have declined him, still he has his wish, and he wants me to go out of the company.

My future is full of uncertainties and I am really troubled now. Why this shit happens yar? I am going through all this, just because he had his heart on me and he could not lay his hands upon me.  In my last blog, I have asked is it sexual harassment, now, I clearly know, that this is sexual harassment. But I won’t give up. NO, NO NO, CLEARLY NO.

I had once left my job, almost 2 years before, then also to go out of these kind of tensions. Then I was almost fresher, and I had to sit at home for 2 months. Although, I don’t want to go through all over again, but I will have to keep courage I think.

Although, at first I decided that  I will wait till being terminated or getting a letter from his side, as in this case , I will have one month salary, and in between , if I get a job elsewhere , still it would  be lovely, but now I think it is impossible as he seems to be  in a hurry and if I resign right now, I will be able to have my upper hand. As then I would be that I have resigned rather than, he terminated me. I am thinking now that when should I resign, I need your advice on this matter also friends. Please help me.

I just read an article that “ quitting does not mean, losing, staying with a sacking job or relationship, does not mean that you are winning, if you are losing your dignity in a situation, then staying does not mean winning, instead quitting means winning.”

Should I say now?

  I QUIT